WAITING IS THE HARDEST THING
Since I had both a brain and lower back scan, I was pulled in and out of the tube four times -- each time I was in the tube for at least 15 minutes, one time 25 minutes. The first time was very nerve racking --just the fear of the unknown and knowing you were enclosed in a tube. Then when the noises started - OMG! My eyes were squeezed shut, I didn't open them once. The anticipation of what noise was coming next was terrifying -- because if you moved -- you would have to start all over again. Well, by the third time I was an old pro. No big deal. I just laid their and counted the sounds over and over again. But I'll never want to do that EVER again.
So now, I sit and wait for the results. My brain went into overdrive. Of course I'm thinking cancer -- tumor. I'm a "the sky is falling, the sky is falling" type a person when it comes to health issues. A friend told me to relax and take my mind off it - read, sleep or bake.
Bake -- me ---HA! I never bake. First off, it's too precise for me. I'm more
of a dash of this, shake of that -- take a taste, add some more -- take another taste. Then... there is the whole little complex I have about baking. When I was in junior high, my Home Economics teacher was taste testing one of the muffins I baked. She spit it out and said it was horrible, it tasted like soap. Apparently, I measured wrong. The recipe asked for 1 teaspoon of baking soda, I added 1 tablespoon. Oops! Well, needless to say, this teacher's reaction defined me as a baker for the rest of my life. Teachers sometimes don't realize what a profound effect they can have on their students, good and bad.
So now, I decided to take baby steps with baking. I made some white chocolate clusters and fudge. My husband told me NOT to make it ever again. Not because it was bad -- but it was just that good. It was all gone in a matter of two days -- we have gained a lot of weight from all that sugary yumminess!
The baking -- as simple as it was -- worked. It took my mind off the MRI and brought some happiness to my family at the same time.
The recipe for the white chocolate clusters is so very, very simple.
- Melt a bag of white chocolate chips in the microwave for two minutes.
- Then stir in your favorite snacks -- marshmallows, pretzels, crushed Oreos, peanuts, Carmel bites, toffee bits -- the list is endless.
- Then you drop a spoonful of the mixture onto wax paper and let harden.
WAH-LAH! I'm now a baker - HA!
Maybe next time I'll use dark chocolate and some healthy non-sugary, non-starchy bits. The fudge is typical fudge recipe, but I layered the bottom of the pan with marshmallows before I poured the fudge.
So the waiting is over -- at least for most of the results. My back is pretty normal with minor arthritis -- which I knew. Still unsure of the brain and my numbness in my arms. The scans came back with an unusual amount of white spots which most likely is attributed to migraines -- which I had many, many years ago. But just to be sure I will now have to see a neurologist.
Man this getting old thing is scary. Being in my 40's has taken on a whole new meaning with all the changes mentally and physically. I can sure be exhausting, frustrating and sometimes depressing. But as always hopping in my Jeep with the top down always brings back the happiness and youthful me!
Jeep -- It's not Just an Adventure! It's a Good Life.