Monday, March 12, 2018

Living My Passion

About a year before I bought my Jeep Wrangler Sahara, a real struggle in my life began. So much was changing for me. My two boys were getting older, not needing me like they used to. I was burned out from ten or so years of volunteering with various groups my kids were involved in. I was exhausted from making sure my dyslexic son was getting what he needed in school. And... I was realizing I was getting older, my body was changing, which not only affected me physically, but mentally. I was going through a big life transition without realizing what was happening.

My life had revolved around my kids and family. I loved my kids. I gave them 150 percent. My cousin gave me some advice when my first son was born. She said, I should cherish every second with them because they grow up so fast, before you know it they will be adults. So that is what I did. I will never ever regret a single moment. I have so many wonderful memories, and times shared with them. However, there was so much focus on them, I put my individual needs on the back burner.  

As they started wanting their own space and time, I had time to fill. I struggled for a direction, for a purpose. I had been a stay-at-home mom for, at the time, twelve years. Going back to those individual needs on the back burner, I realized what I once enjoyed was no longer something I enjoyed. My career in television news wasn't an option, so what was next for me, what could I do? I applied for several jobs with no luck. (It took me four years to find a job.)

I was depressed. The things I once enjoyed didn't appeal to me. Life was too quickly passing me by. Then along came my Jeep Wrangler. A spur of the moment impulse buy. Some people call it a mid life crisis. But I say it's a life transition. 

That impulse buy changed my whole life. 

Now a new Jeep Wrangler owner a friend suggested I start a blog to share my Jeep Mom adventure. So I did, and Jeep Momma was born. During that first year it was all about simplifying my life, finding new happiness, and searching for my passion. It was the beginning of something so wonderful and amazing.  

As my blog grew and blossomed, I discovered this amazing community of really fun, caring and extremely accepting  people called Jeepers. 

Over the past several years through my Jeep adventure I find my passion all tied up with the things I have loved when I was in elementary school, in my 20's and now more recently. 
My love to write and share stories has always been with me. I have an innate desire to inspire and help people by sharing what has helped and worked for me.   

When I was in elementary school my favorite subject was creative writing. I remember sharing my stories with the class. That all of a sudden it stopped when I came to school one day to discover a "mean girls" letter signed by all the girls in my class. They were making fun of my stories. Creative writing was never the same for me after that. However, in high school I picked it back up again, but stuck with the stories that were just the facts. 

In my 20's out in the real world my love for sharing stories continued as I started my career in television news as a reporter and videographer in the capital city of North Dakota. Then moving on to South Carolina as a news videographer I experienced some awesome adventures. 

Then comes along my first son. My forever life changed, but new passions emerged as I found motherhood changes you.  Now as I take on a different role of motherhood, I find it time to find my new passion.  

But during this journey of discovery, I realized the core of my passion never changed. My passion for sharing stories and inspiring people, has been with me my whole life. I just needed a different way to share those stories and inspire people. 

My Jeep changed my life and helped me fill that empty hole.  My Jeep helped me to discover myself again. My Jeep helped me circle back around to my core passion. Sharing stories on my Jeep Momma blog and now on my You Tube channel Jeep Momma's Garage. Combining my new love for off-roading and my Jeep with a core need for sharing and inspiring has helped fill the emptiness I once had as motherhood evolved.        

At first it was really hard to accept my kids and husband didn't share the same enthusiasm for my off roading passion. They had no interest to wheel with me, but more recently I have come to accept it. I now look for new ways for us to have our own passions, but still enjoy our family time. 

From time to time I open my email to a message thanking me for my honesty and the stories I share. Hearing I have inspired another person warms my heart and gives me to drive to keep going and expanding.

Fellow Jeep Mom Inspired - Blog Post January 2018 

Now I don't look at life with the same fear of getting older. I just take it one story at a time. One day at a time and one new adventure at a time. This year will be filled with those adventures and I can't wait.