So I found some quiet time the other day to sit down, reflect and ask myself some hard questions. My goal was to come up with three to five things I enjoy and go from there. I looked far back into my childhood trying to remember what I enjoyed to do, what I wanted to be, and what I was curious about.
So during my reflection time it struck me. My joy for writing ended the day I got "the note". I guess I just put the whole issue in the back of my mind and forgot about it. But, I believe it has subconsciously been with me this whole time. "The Note" -- a mean girls note -- signed by all the girls in my 5th grade class. All I remember is sitting outside the classroom crying not wanting to go back in. They were making fun of me and my stories. Looking back now that was the last time I really was inspired to write.

So I have created my list -- Writing is on that list. I will dig out my files and see if I can finish at least one of those books I started and then go from there.
2. Photography is another on my list. This one came to me in a different way. I didn't get this answer while I was reflecting, but from a random stranger on Instagram. Scrolling through hundreds of pictures, one of his caught my eye, so I checked out his other pictures. It had me thinking back to my days as a news videographer and how I miss that creativity. So I will switch out my video camera and take a stab at a still camera. I did just that at my son's basketball game. It sure is a different feel than videography.
3. Organizing is such an obvouis choice to add to that list. I didn't even have to think about that one.
So now my list consists of
1. Writing
2. Photography - Still Photography
3. Organization
4. Running ???
5. Basketball ???

A couple months back I was looking forward to running my first 10K. I was even thinking ahead to the next ones I would run. But for some reason I did something to aggravate my sciatic nerve. I ran the whole race in pain and with a numb foot. I was so determined to finish the race. I did, but not as well as I would have liked. So now I ask myself, is running a passion or just a goal to accomplish and move on to the next goal. Looking at all the signs and my answers to the questions. Running is not a passion, but a way to stay healthy. I will keep my running goals and try for another 10K. But when my body is ready.
So for now I will stick with writing, photography and organization. I will continue to ask myself the important questions as I journey to discover my new passion and purpose. It won't happen over night or in the next couple of months but I hope someday it will come to me. In the meantime I will have filled my time, I just hope that it will be able to turn into a career because I don't feel like bagging groceries at the local supermarket or answering phones and taking attendence at a local school. Too bad there isn't a market out their for Jeep Mom's!
Simple Living - Enjoying Life -- The Jeep Momma Way!
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