Monday, February 15, 2021

Finding God

Change is a constant.
Change is personal.
Change can be hard.  

When faced with major life changes each person handles these transitions differently, just as different as we are as individuals. The level of "Transition Struggle" is due to different factors in our life, such as our energy, mindset, levels of stress, and history of resilience, just to name a few.  

For years, I struggled finding my place in the world. I was a
stay-at-home mom for 16 years, then began to transition out of being a full-time mom. It was a long, hard road navigating this change. Of course I will always a be a mom, but now in a different capacity. 

As I tried to work through that struggle, it put a strain on my marriage. Then the marriage became a struggle. Unfortunatly, my marriage came to an end. Last year we just couldn't hold on anymore. I decided the best move for all of us was for me to leave.

I wasn't happy in Maryland. I didn't fit in. I was self medicating my unhappiness with drinking. Drinking excessivly. It was time for a much needed change as the path I was on was destructive.

Leaving the state, the East Coast, was the right plan for me. Staying, as my son said, would have killed me. I don't drink anymore, well not like I used to. I may have a glass of wine once in awhile, but not like I used to. I am in a better place now, but still struggling with the transistion. Not the transition of a divorce, but the transition of being a mom.

I get sad, pretty much every day, missing my kids. It would even get angry with God. Asking why? How could you? 

Since heading out West to the mountains of Colorado, I talk to God every day with tears rolling down my cheeks. Asking the why's and the how could's. Funny thing is, he answers me. I don't always hear it the first time as it takes a while to really understand what is happening. 

There were days I thought I was being punished... Karma sorta speak... for things I did. Neil set me straight on that. He said, "God does not punish you, everything happens for a reason. You may not see it now, but there is a reason." 

He is right. It's not God's fault, and I am not being punished. 

This whole experience has brought me closer to Him. I still have a lot of healing and accepting to do. Truth be told, during those dark days I would pray. I didn't truly believe though. Why did I pray? It's what I was taught to do. It's what you do in hard times. I prayed to God wanting this life of adventure, to have my own "Jeep Momma's Garage" and to find that person to share my life with who wanted the same adventure,and to find happiness. He was listening. 

I am not being punished. I was heard. Now it is time I accept this change in my life. The change I asked for and the change I needed. I need to accept my new role as a mom too. That's a hard one though. 

I read somewhere...“When you want to have a close relationship with someone you spend hours of time with that person. That’s how you fall in love with God. You get to know Him on a one-on-one basis. That’s what happens when you’re forced through your pain to spend hours of time praying for relief, help, and strength.

As horrible as it is to struggle with the guilt and sadness, I am becoming stronger person. I am stronger in my faith.

Meeting Neil has also made me a better person. Neil is teaching me many things about myself as well. Like he always says everything happens for a reason. 

ROMANS 8:28 We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”

Lord Jesus, as I cry out to You in my pain, praying for relief and help and strength, I pray that I grow to be a better person—strong, wise, and mature in You. Amen.

Let God comfort you through His Word.

Philippians 4: 5-6 “The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God”

Saturday, February 6, 2021

TOP 5 Must Do with Your New Jeep

When I became a new Jeep owner, I had no idea what I was getting into. I didn’t know where to start and asked tons of questions. That was over seven years ago. I have learned a lot since then. 

My Top 5 "Must Do's" as a New Jeep Owner.

You Tube Video - Top 5 Must Do's New Jeep Owners 

Neil's Top 5 Must Do's for New Jeep Owners 

First - Get to know what your Jeep is capable of before you start making serious mods to your Jeep. Take your Jeep out for different rides on different terrains. That is if you plan on taking it off road. If you don’t plan on taking it off road, like I did at first, don’t be surprised when one day that bug hits you.

Second - Floor Mats A must! Especially if you have carpet.
You will want those rubberized floor mats. I like the ones that have the high perimeter walls to keep all the yuk contained. They are great for those snowy winter months when you track that snowy salty muddy mush into your Jeep. 

Third- Accessory Color
Pick your your accessory color because soon after you buy your Jeep you will be seeing all the other Jeeps and how unique they are. You will want to make your Jeep your own reflection of your personality.

The amount of Jeep accessories you can buy are vast. If they don’t come in the color you pick you can always use spray paint.  

Fourth - Decals A must do to your Jeep! A hand wave in your
accessory color looks awesome. You can also add the name of your Jeep on the side of the hood, that is if you are into naming your Jeep.

There is the windshield decal too. Decals and stickers seem to be a Jeep thing for most. If you don't want decals on the outside of your Jeep, just add them under the hood of the Jeep. 

Fifth - Recovery Points  Even if you don’t go off road. You never know when your Jeep is going to be needed to pull out another vehicle.  If you decide to off-road good solid recovery points are a must. 

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